the hope i wear

i still hope we'll get through this. anger and hatred is not needed. all you've got to do is to accept and to understand.iknow, compared to your reasons..mine have some points that you might not see.but still, i hope you'll understand and accept it.and there's a question inside.."now that what you feel special for me seems fading,and all the good things are gone..are you happy?" i know it's all me to blame but ijust want to know. *cause if you are,that means all the things you felt special really doesn't matter even without your anger and all. it shows that what you feel are just nothing. emotions you shouldn't show. *but if you're not, i know that still. you feel something special no matter how tiny it is.i know, somewhere there. and anytime it can fire up and bring the light for us again.cause i know,maybe it can fade..but once you felt that something special, it'll never die. *both ways, what i feel for you still remains.it never changes,and for as long as i breath..it's you and only you my heart finds.and that's eternal.i will go on with or without your feelings for me.cause i know, we never lost each other.that's why i'll never give this up. i'm always here.

i love you,always forever

i still belive in destiny and hope
it's the things who can come between
making ourselves just like in our memories.
they say i'm nothing
they say i'm no one
but you made me know they are all wrong
i felt i could be someone else
i still believe that god has his reasons for all these.
we just have to be strong.
hold still on each other and never give up.
knowing you is like catching a ball but i'm confused and afraid to toss it
because i might make the wrong move and miss the goal.
you made me feel i was special.
i hope you really mean it. not just because i'm kind.
i wish it's all true.
the stars never peeped a light on me
leaves never dried for me
the sun does not kiss the sea for me
the birds never sing for me.
it's all just happening..just like you,
you happened and changed everything.
and now you feel something is wrong.
we just have to get through this.because i don't wanna lose you.
you being there means much i should feel.
we still have each other,we never lost it.
i still and always will love you..

everything is on a spin

hay buhay, sa wakas pagaling na ako. para akong namatay ng 8 days.. ansama ng feeling. e2, klngan ko humabol sa takbo ng buhay.sa scul,sa friends,sa buhay! hehe.pero yus parin ako.. nagusap kmi kgbi.ayus lng.buti na ung ganon.wla nman may gs2 na magkagalit kmi e. naintndhan ko kung bkt ganun cya.kasalanan ko din nman e.sana lng matanggap nya ung mga dahilan ko at maunawaan nya ako.pra maayus na to.hehe.ngayon, pa friendster friendster lng ako..mmya, todo review na ako sa chem.sana tumawag ulit cya.gs2 ko sbhn sa kanya na nmmiss ko na tlga cya.aun.may gnwa ulit ako..
after all this
when the scars are gone
when the pain is away
after the tears dry
and the feelings healed back
i will catch up
i will make it up
just don't run too fast
i don't want to be left behind
i'll catch up
PROMISE
hehe.aus ba?la mgawa e.pero totoo yan.alam ko ndami ako ngawang mali.gs2 kong bumawi. gs2 ko humabol sa mga naiwan ko.sa bagay,cguro gnusto tlga ni Lord for some reasons.pra din cguro masubukan kung gano ko kakayanin pg alam ko skin ung problema.hehe.mis ko na tlga cya!

sadness within me now

all the sadness and this was brought with just one blow. i hardly saw it. the next thing before it was you and your smile. i was happy then. but all of a sudden the wind never stopped on me.
it blew hard.hard enough to take away the sadness i feel. it washed my anger and all the emotions i felt.the heat of the sun pinches my skin.slowly piercing off my soul.feels like it would lose grip on my hanging body on a cliffhanger.but my heart just can't.love never ends. that's why your name is always on a circle not in a heart.cause in a circle, my love never breaks. in a circle, thinking of you never ends.and loving you is eternal.all the things happened between us, i want to get it back from your bad feelings.i want to get it and keep it for love's sake. i'll put it in a box and maybe open it again if all of these comes through us.i want to fly right now. away from all these..i still don't want to believe that this is happening.before i knew it,it faded.you're always invited to come. you know, you've punched me 7 times stronger than anyone else exists. but how come i can't feel the pain? i can't feel the pain. i can't feel the pain. can't we hold back on what we had before this nightmare?can't we be ourselves like we were before? and now i find myself living into memories.creating an image of life without you.but i can't! cause as long as my body lives,or even if it dies..i wouldn't change a damn thing about loving you with my soul. now, i wish i'm in eternal serenity..sleeping..and hoping you would wake me up.wake me up again..

you under my skin

we still have some chances that can be used. this is given to us for us to be strong. it's just a test.
we're still friends whatever happens. and the right time will come if ever now is not enough. we have our faith in each other.we both believe in destiny.we both know that even if we can't be together right at this moment.we will have our time.remember the times we shared our thoughts? so many times we both say the words at the same time.."sa outer space" i was so happy with that and all.we're so close.and its so plain to say that i learned to love you to the extent that i promised to marry you.maybe they'll say i'm too newbie to say those things but i'm old enough to understand what i'm saying isn't impossible.i just really miss you today.

"No one could ever know me, No one could ever see me, seems you're the only one who knows, What it's like to be me. Someone to face the day with,Make it through all the rest with.Someone I'll always laugh with. Even at the worst I'm best with you"

an excerpt from a song..so funny why everybody feels the same pain over and over until your over..and everyone thinks it's really over.i told her.. loving her is breathing, how can i stop?..everything will be alright.i'm always here.no matter what happens. maybe you are thinking that im just doing things to get you or please you for my own sake.for you all know, i never did something that i knew it's my choice.and my choice is to burn waiting until you can see.
breakfast at tiffany's:

"I see you,
the only one who knew me,
And now your eyes see through me,
I guess I was wrong,So what now?
It's plain to see we're over,
And I hate when things are over,
When so much is left undone"

this will never happen. i will always be your friend. i just wish there'is still something left for me in you.......

summer rain

i opened my eyes,it was a sunny day.i told myself it's just an ordinary day...i wish..felt like the sun never shined on me.hearing voices from my heart.emotions drew black and white.my mind makes me ask what to do.just wished i never woke up.feels as bad as yesterday.. can't we just be what we're used to? sometimes hearing the truth makes you better even if it will make you feel all wrong. anger wouldn't change everything. sorries wouldn't heal the pain. but the reality that you did something and all you've got to do is to understand and hope would make things better. with a burst of all the consequences, i just have to take it all. maybe i've just love you much. maybe i'm just afraid that you would fly..away,that i wouldn't have another chance. that's why i've shown you much.too much that you can't breath.much to feel the pressure inside. i just want you to feel what's on me.i just want to give it all because maybe i wouldn't have the chance anymore. because we both know the nearing stage wherein we wouldn't find time together. but i guess too much wouldn't make you feel the real thing i'd like you to feel.it turned out that it would make you feel the other way around.and this is it.i just want you to understand.
well yes, it's another day. but i can't be like this everyday. today my soul is calm. because i know it's gonna be alright. maybe then you'd appreciate what i've done even if it's wrong. maybe you'll appreciate.when such a time will come on you.maybe you'll then understand me.I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU EVEN AS A FRIEND.never had a clue what made you see me wrong. but whatever made you,i know it's all true.maybe this time it's all up to you.. never loved someone else like i do.i just want you to be happy in life with or without me by your side. but i want you to always remember, that whatever happens"..we still have each other. somewhere.somehow." God didn't made me know you for just nothing.God wants us to meet for us to learn each other and to accept.for us to be happy and for us to know our capacity to love as humans.just humans.

hay nako, sakit ng buhay.kagabi sobrang sama ng utak ko..
pero dahil ndi ako natulog..nkpgicpicp dn nman ako. naicp ko na ndi nman dapat magselos o magisip ng kung ano man.dahil mababaw lng nman ung pngseselosan ko. tska, ndi dapat ako nkekealam.aun.nagalit tuloy cya.pero cguro dala lng un ng pgkasad ko kc nammis ko na cya at naiicp ko na dapat ako ung ksama nya,haha.pero naintndhan ko dn nman e. mali kc ung iniicp ko e.kaibigan lng nman e.ngayon,wla na skn un.hehe.salamat ke popops!un.tska naicp ko nrin tlga na khit maging kmi,ndi mwwala un.hehe.bad3p dn ung sun.hehe.hirap 2mwag.

what i felt in you

it's a feeling more than what most of us feel.

it's a feeling of making someone feel happy everyday.

it's a feeling of showing someone that she is special.

it's respecting her decision knowing that it's from her heart.

it's making her laugh even if you are sick.

it's giving her the best of you.

it's changing for good and specially for her.

it's like burning a lifetime waiting.

it's being free when your not if she needs you.

it's doing your best for her to feel that you are there in times of sadness.

it's letting her carry around your heart anywhere she goes.

it's teaching yourself to learn evrything about her.

it's being completely honest to each other even if it hurts.

it's doing stupid things like not sleeping until she does.

it's making a promise over the unseen consequences.

it's writing poems everytime you think about her.

it's kissing straight for 2 hours.

it's dating her whatever it takes just to be with her.

it's crying everytime you realize that your not going her anymore.

it's promising to see and live together forever after 4 years.

it's believing in destiny.

it's having faith, hope and love as the bond between no matter how far.

it's searching you and you only again and again after every life.

maybe you think it's love...

it's not.

there is such thing as a love more than love.

a feeling that weighs more than being in love.

somethings can't be the real thing but punches harder than that.

got it?

life and death is destiny.
destiny is shewn in your skin.
could be faith.
but you can't just wait for it to happen.
what exactly is happening at this moment is destined to happen.
the things you've thought about to do,
misfortunes,
meeting someone special,
gaining something,
it's all destined to happen.
you just have to believe.
don't ever fear destiny.